Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Black Swan 2

By James J. Hamilton
Black Swan was released four years ago today. I love this movie and it has played a huge role in my life. As a comedian, I was writing jokes about it before I'd even seen it. When I saw it for the first time, the screen faded to white at the end and I was literally sitting on the edge of my seat with my mouth gaping open. I went to see it again the very next day. In the intervening years I have watched it many times and it has never relinquished its hold on me.

Though you wouldn't have guessed it from my classic, overly-graphic masturbation joke, my obsession with Black Swan does not stem from the Natalie Portman/Mila Kunis lesbian sex scene (which is very nice though).

I relate to the movie because, among other things, it mirrors my artistic struggle. I need to stop being just a white swan and find my inner black swan. I have to be able "to dance both." That's a hard fucking job: "Perfection is not just about control. It's also about letting go. Surprise yourself so you can surprise the audience. Transcendence. Very few have it in them."


I had the craziest dream last night...


*James has the greatest set in comedy history*

*Walks offstage, collapses*

*People rush to his aid, notice he is bleeding profusely from the stomach*

"I felt it. Perfect. I was perfect."


*Fade to white* 

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